Itch

It hurts to think that we can never go back to the way we were last year. I never thought I'd get the 'itch' with you but I have it and it won't go away! Come to think of it, I have the 'itch' with almost everyone I know now. I just can't appreciate people the way I used to; I just can't love the way I used to. There's always something holding me back. Judgement? Maybe... I think I see more and understand more. I see what you're doing, I get it but I can't reconcile myself with it. Wait... Isn't that exactly how you feel? But I don't want to rationalize this, I'm sure someone gets what I'm saying so I don't have to try to understand. That sounds terrible! Maybe I'm terrible... but I'm just trying to become!